my heart bled again.

yea. i died again.

its that feeling again, where i get unaccepted.

i thank her that she has honestly told me, and at least treated it coolly.

but it still feels really painful.

im disappointed at the way im handling it.

but it hurts. it hurts to crash to the bottom like tt.

there is a blade in my chest now. it went through.

i wanna remove it.

but it does seem difficult.

its not anyone's fault.

i feel completely.. dead. all over again.

i've lost count on my revivals. i don't know whether im gonna pull through this one.

thanks to those who gave advice. thanks guys.