sayonara itoshii no kimi.

awfully tired. raced for a few hours already. keeps getting better in me. driving.

but worse off is econs. argh. i need the help. grace of God, will you spare me some more?

finally done wif WP. left with drama. shldn't be too hard now. in any case im just awfully tired. btw..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! wow. that didnt sound real enuff.
it must be just me. i never went through february smoothly. hey at least im better off now rite. haha. so tmr is just another ordinary day. supersonic! great sleeping day. i would be staying home because i dun wanna feel sian when i look at couples. kinda reminder to me. basket, its almost like a taunt at me. but it aint their fault, its couples' day. so leave them be. i shall.. just wait my time. haha

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Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

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So f**king bullshit. the only way to get thru bad patches is to survive it and dun look back. well, its over and done, im to get over it.

to be given false hope is not nice at all. NOT AT ALL. in fact, false hope is the crime.