it could have been worse.

i'm having so much fun with the covers.

gee, for those who said they were nice, thanks. i thought they really sucked. it is really the act of God for a person like me to design something that is nice, for someone like me with no design element in mind. haha.

this smooth sailing. not good at all. i don't trust it. complacency will just come. better get ready for obstacles of myself that can hinder my attitudes. i observe those who take for granted... and fell.

i think i have no right to play judge, but i guess this is a pride thing. i need to deal with it slowly, get my mind right.. i don't want to drift away from the right stuff. drift away from God... they are all WRONG.

back to more normal stuff.

i suspect i failed FW. most of the others did too. man... this is crazy. i think it would have been ok if one or two failed. but almost the whole class did. i don't think the cohort is THAT LOUSY... i'm not saying that because we are DMC we deserve better, but because we are DMC and we can write, we know it and others know too... at least at our level. and same case with 01 who suffered the same fate. i heard rajan-sama was good enough to do something to help us. we have to do something about it!

GEMS was also cleared with some random photos about EMOTION/DRAMA. i seriously smoke my way out of here. talk some random caption. but i don't want my THURSDAY modules to pull me down! that includes OM! but i think OM will be smoother. something with notes. and something that is study-able. just that sheila kee-sama's notes are horrible.. poor font size and font.. it makes her notes sucky to read. sorry, but it's not even visually motivating to read. although rajan-sama's notes are in a outline form, i think it's at least interesting. hers... not so good. the standard level should be like kwa-sama sort... that's the more interactive one. but lecturers should NEVER(gawd, please) let the students copy everything from the powerpoint. it sure keeps the student awake, but it's damn tedious!

politics and all that with work... we all have to learn how to be professional and not let work totally ruin friendship... sometimes we have to control our attitudes too. for some people, they are like blacklisted, and i know they know that and hopefully they would do something about it and not worsen their condition. i try to look at it in a way that they will one day be forgiven. eternal condemnation is not my right. haha.

in any case, we all have to work positively. i try to do that.

but in all this, i try to maintain my reality. i am a Christian, and i know very well i cannot do things right without God. my strength < His Strength, and i can accomplish none without Him. i don't want to go to the aspect of living two lives.

first step: STOP SWEARING

eventual steps will come along the way. haha, sometimes people don't understand me and don't give me a chance to be understood. i hope in time they get the message. even i can conquer my emotional weakness slowly, don't discourage me please. i will do my best and take under control what i can.

alright i should just do a weekly post. and covers wise... i think i reduce posting them up. i want to keep the fun element along it. (: