bleed into wash.

i don't want to owe money! HELP ME AND MAKE ME CLEAR MY DEBTS, LORD!!!

an analysis would show that the camp has severe effects on people. severely POSITIVE effects. about most of those who have went for the retreat have had tremendous effects. credit goes to God of course. without Him this is nothing. of course... there would be errors also which didn't work out, but the positivity is the encouragement factor.

i wonder about myself though. did i change or not?

worship team.. it's cool to play in there, but i have decided, if i don't play it right, i don't play. what is the point of blank music. some people feel i play music emotionless. i have to put some reason and purpose in it. maybe it's like moshing and rocking. but i want to have fun when i play music. but worship team is directed at God. God, teach me to give You music good to Your ears, for You.

i don't know. but i think i can sense that this is a rest period... the quiet before the storm. let me live my life straight, and i'm clean. i'm going to get ready. and hopefully, i don't get same problem, such as emotional shit.

i hate this problem, and i'm going to deal with it.