DISCOURAGED.

it's not your fault if you don't understand anything i try to do. i can't expect you to notice them anyway, because when you start noticing what i do, you'll start to notice everyone else too.

observation... it's not a skill. it's more of a choice i suppose. but ultimately, i must be aware i am no longer in control of the whole situation already. oh well, i should avoid the path labelled SORE LOSER. it's a weak term.

perhaps i took what you said too seriously. but even if it has some deeper meaning which you don't usually deliver, then, well, i'm not in a very good shape already. i should just remember the term that i am NOT in control.

oh well. i can only hope it's a casual remark.

DISCOURAGED.