Where Did I Go Wrong?

The Fray's - How to Save A Life

Step one you say, "We need to talk."
He walks, you say, "Sit down, it’s just a talk."
He smiles politely back at you,
You stare politely right on through,
Some sort of window to your right.
As he goes left and you stay right,
Between the lines of fear and blame,
You begin to wonder why you came.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend,
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known how to save a life.

Let him know that you know best,
'Cause after all you do know best.
Try to slip past his defense,
Without granting innocence.
Lay down a list of what is wrong.
The things you’ve told him all along.
Pray to god he hears you.
And I pray to god he hears you and,

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend,
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known how to save a life.

As he begins to raise his voice,
You lower yours and grant him one last choice.
"Drive until you lose the road,
Or break with the ones you’ve followed."
He will do one of two things.
He will admit to everything,
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same,
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend,
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known how to save a life.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend,
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known how to save a life.
How to save a life.
How to save a life.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend,
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known how to save a life.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend,
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known how to save a life.
How to save a life.
How to save a life.

Post Waste

A little tag from Eddamund...

It can't be that bad right? I never get a chance at all these sort of stuff anyway, so on a brighter note, let's try this...

This one’s called “10 weird habits”

Rules of the game : **Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. **People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. **At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1. I like to - W**K (work, HAHAHA -.-, I'd like to feel happy.)

2. I am allowed - to eat secret suppers.

3. My favourite part of my body is - my versatile fingers that type these words without my eyes to guide them.

4. If i could fix one part of my human body - I shouldn't be thinking of this anyway, so I have to be content with what I have anyway.

5. I hate - bEtrayeRx.. BacKstAbBerX.. (yea right, really, I don't hate anything)

6. If I could date a female celebrity, I would date - my real girlfriend, if I had one.

7. If I could date a male celebrity, it’s - a present I would like to give a girl actually.

8. I’m attracted to - people who can think about what I'm thinking about.

9. I hate it - (I used to hate it) when people refuse to take me seriously.

10. I prefer to sleep - during school hours.

To tag the people, if you're free,
1)Von-san
2)Yin-san
3)Farid-Fingers (I'm copying the Freddy Fingers thing from Balls Of Fury, but hell, I'd like to know about Farid anyway.)
4)Joanie
5)Rachel
6)Priscilla

Alright, end of post-waste.

Sorry to Say.

Sorry to blog about such stupid little entries nowadays... It's a ridiculously tough month this September, one to remember.

There are no sour notes in the medley here... The symphony was too perfect. Every obstacle came together in synchronization, and perhaps if I chose to see life as a bit more harsh, maybe it couldn't be so bad?

Driving, yes, driving was failed due to an injustice, which the tester felt I was overconfident. Injustice, yes, because I didn't think I'd fail over such ridiculous mistakes of FOLLOWING TOO CLOSELY, which I wasn't, but Mr. Tester didn't seem to even want to pass me anyway, so, to hell, it wasn't meant to be, therefore I'll just wait for the next test, which I have pushed from a Mid-December timing to an End-November timing.

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It's hard to sleep anymore... The fear of sleep, something which is so dead rare for a person for me. This explains headaches and all that lack of alertness, putting myself to attacks in all aspects of my life.

I'm past a stage where I should be thrown down and look at life negatively. Sure life has always SUXXXXX(sucked) for me... It's some form of judgement I suppose. The most important thing is to actually just play on in this little life game without wanting to back out.

Repentance perhaps is the key in the life that refuses to submit to the will and nature of God. Submission, into trusting your future into hands that created me, would be also kindly required.

The rehabilitation continues for only one purpose now; to create stability within myself in all possible areas, and perhaps find some true meaning and purpose within me. Maybe the mountains would help, but I'd think the start of school would be sufficient. It is the time when answers shouldn't be spoon-fed, but be observed and realised before it hits critical points.

Yes, I'm in pain. A plaster wouldn't help the situation at all, only continued healing. A torn soul is not impossible to heal, but it could take a long time and I'm rushing for it. Let me look back at this post in time and realize I've grown way stronger.

For entertainment again, please listen to the songs below.

"Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds."

Unnatural Emo

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' up Tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' up Tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.

I'm goin' back to the start.



Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
Ooh I'm on your back, I'm on your back, Ooh I'm on your back

If you'd accept surrender, give up some more
Weren't you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
Ooh I'm on your back I'm on your back
Ooh I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back Ooh

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
Ooh I'm on your back, I'm on your back, Ooh I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Chinese Mode.

"我始终变得不多愁善感
回忆还像心跳那么难忘
拥抱的热还留在我们的身上
缘分却不能反抗
爱人不变朋友实在太难
希望离别能让以后
更快乐更幸福更美满"

Chorus of Zhang Hui Mei's 快乐眼泪.

I hear another SNAP.

I'm having an awful headache.

As I get ready for school next week, I'm hoping to go in with a clearer mind and not be so, disturbed.

I'm having an awful headache *pain* headache *pain*.

It is most FUCKED UP.

:D

"You have no idea at all. No freaking idea."

Hilarious.

Outside, looking in.

A more permanent blog skin this time, with a much clearer and vibrant look, improved font size. The tag board still has some "colour-offness" feel, so do suggest to me.

At one point I was thinking of shutting down on blogging. Just felt like it should just end.

It would, I guess... Soon. I would like to just cremate this blog actually.

Anyway, in personal rehabilitation until school starts. Minimizing as much activity as possible, to reflect and to re-orientate myself. Long story, not interesting.

But, to get things going, driving test is on Friday! Come on, I can do it!

"Sometimes we have to be cruel to be kind."

Tingling Sensation

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I was bored.

Alcoholic

Oh my, excitement!

The next week is filled with two major events; firstly, I have heard that the results for the semester will be released on 12/9 next Wednesday, and secondly my driving test A.K.A moment of truth and judgement is on 14/9 on Friday.

I'm kind of scared at looking at the grades because of a stupid reason, which is that I fear looking at them may actually demoralise me and therefore cause me to screw up my driving test. IT'S JINXED, I TELL YOU. SHIT HAPPENS IN A ROW ONLY.

Driving is more important actually, because I can still have a grasp of the situation, unlike the grades, which is not within control, but still... And driving has many inconsistency issues. The biggest problem lies in parallel parking, which I usually end up crashing the back pole. Another issue would be the crank course, which I usually don't have problem, but in that one in a hundredth chance that I turn too early or late I will mount the cursed kerb!

Putting that aside, I haven't been doing anything much because of the lack of work, but I've begun jogging again! YES! Well, I wouldn't necessary call it Operation: Body Buff, but you could say I'm actually wanting to be fit for once. :-/

More stuff coming in the week. I have plenty of stuff to say, and they are positive stuff. =) No news value? Too bad. HAH!