all the movements you're starting to make.

finally, left with only FW.

plenty has happened... i have a funeral to attend to (grandmother's), MMR has finally completed, more news and news... now my body reaches its limit, and crumbles.

so sick right now, it seems damn cool to be.

and what luck. i tried to go to the doctors but they were all CLOSED.

my body needs more strength.

i need more antibodies, i need a new health stat. ARGH!!!

finish this week and its R&R + EXERCISE!

see me crumble before my fate.

i finished DMA! AMAZING!

i really must have slacked in DMS all this while. managed to piece together an MTV of some sort with TEARS & RAIN by James Blunt. i hate that song, but it's coming in useful.

just dealt with GEMS. a bit dangerous, because i'm really doing it randomly.

now left with

1) OM test tomorrow. NO IDEA. 10%! how motivating. just slowly do then.
2)MMR powerpoint and presentation on FRIDAY! i haven't started(2329 hours). i want to finish quick!
3)FW essay. crappy work that needs to be done. i hate writing personal stuff because i'm bored out of my wits of my life.

ok back to work!

twisting your minds, smashing your dreams.

i haven't blogged for a long time huh.

finally, i can see a slowdown to rest. workload is balancing bit by bit. last week was a fierce war because of MMR. we are so damn tired.

a quick runthrough.

TUES: Met KWA-sama to go through our questions from MONDAY. a very fast go through, since we didn't have much questions. Decided that we had to sit down and spawn a lot of questions.

WED: LSC. Hopping room to room because of problems (stink room, OHP spoil, etc).

THURS: Went for OM. the same stuff as usual. i am kind of bored, but i know i MUST do well. Alwyn and Bob didn't come that day, apparently they watched the Barcelona VS Arsenal match till the early morning, so they decided to skip that day. The girls with me and Dong went to HV to eat. Weather was horribly hot, even though laksa or nasi lemak is nice, weather kills us. we went to COLD STORAGE to get some extra stuff. bought some lousy ripoff of a vodka. then returned for FW. crazy old woman as usual. well, we were presented a new CA to add to the load, it's one of those ridiculous 1200++ words essay about some inspiring shit that happened in your life. Give me a break. my life is perfect. hahaha.

A bit more to note was what happened during BS. it was me, joshua and pastor, talking youth stuff. a plan was set, and we are proceeding. i haven't started my part yet; it's hard to catch people. especially... well, i don't feel like talking about it suddenly.

FRI: CONB test where my mind froze towards the end. but it wasn't hard, it was from tutorials. Luckily i have been studying on the trains to school. then went with the guys to marina to have steamboat, which wasn't very satisfying. i feel that i ate $12 worth of meat. that is really scary. it's not just any meat, just a lot of chicken. that's crazy! travelled home and studied law.

SAT: LAW test. it sucks to have ANOTHER TEST because i was already so damn tired already. but it was not too hard, conquerable. after that was the monster war at von's house to do MMR. spawned 50+ questions within 5 hours. first 2 hours, it was productive. toward the end we were dying already. all of us went crazy. finished at 5, and i was late for fellowship BIG TIME. i apologised to huiru for leaving the gospel presentation all to her. not very nice, you know, since she not so familiar also. i was also half-poisoned by the food from Friday, killer, make me want to crap all the time. plus the energy level in me was near zero, was so tired as i walked and conquered the remaining time.

SUN: went for service and listened to sermon. i hope i don't let stupid mistakes i do get in the way of blessings. then went to west coast park to take photos for the GEMS project. it felt weird because i was taking pictures of kids playing at the playgrounds and all that... so damn paedophilic. haha. then went to HV for dinner and watched SGIDOL there, quite stupid and funny.

TODAY: no MMR tutorial, but went early to meet KWA-sama to show her our SAT research. good good, she didn't go vertical strikes against me, it will make me go crazy. have to prepare the powerpoint soon to present to her. after that went to get Bob and MAY babies' birthday cake. nice, tiramisu! ok, a bit horrific because it reminds me of DMA, soon due. have already planned out the day-to-day events for my work load. RAJAN also mentioned that the CONB test had everyone scoring above 70++, except for 1 or 2, who missed out questions. whoopee. i feel great.

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in general, this was a boring week, but it was a tiring one, and i ended up blogging about it today. by blogging, i have lost my stamina to even go and play FF8 already. argh! but won't have time to play any more, with the stupid FW CA, DMA, GEMS, how to play?!?!?! and also i hope that law does just as well as CONB.

for this week, i am going to borrow the iBook from the DMS to do my DMA tomorrow night until wednesday. wednesday i will most probably be in DMS doing DMA also. thursday is the OM test, but there is no FW, so after OM tutorial at 12, i may sit in DMS and just do DMA and hopefully finish by then before the OM test at 5.30. maybe GEMS i will deal with it on wednesday night, but the priority goes into preparing the MMR powerpoint, even though GEMS' submission is on thursday, i should be able to smoke out something for submission. that's about all, and i will battle the freaking FW next week!

everything is so work-related, i lost my personal life. oh well, as long as nothing weird pops up, i need to talk to TIFA-san also, quickly deal with all this personal stuff first, don't want to compromise my school stuff for now. huh what are my emotions? :)

the rich cat who posed a threat.

shame. on. that.

so i reach a level of confusion where a "threat" does not go according to what i expected. so it does know how to play the game.

i hold my shield ready, come whenever you want.

in any case, i'm tired. very tired. spent the afternoon with my MMR group coming up with questions at Coffee Club HV, and we were literally frozen under the stupid aircon. totally blocks our brains out after awhile.

school today can be quite tiring. MMR in the morning... followed by DMA... which i can feel stressed about. the script isn't really the problem; it lies with my reading off the teleprompter. I have to create some form of interaction with the camera while i'm reading my lines off. difficult. plus i see my own reflection on the tv screen i get disturbed a lot.

oh with given grace i should be able to scrape through.

i want to rest early. my mind is freaking out.

bored in class.

PEPSI NEX!!! go play. i own! hahaha

i'd like to think the best of me.

this SUCKS.

really sucks.

i lost myself again.

i need to set these rules.

1)DO NOT BE A FUCKING IDIOT.
2)DO NOT BE A FUCKING IDIOT.
3)DO NOT BE A FUCKING IDIOT.
4)GO BACK TO (1)

yes. at least i feel more comfortable now.

i don't like being weak! i have to stop! i need the strength and power to move!

spare me some magic.

dreams of war, dreams of lies, dreams of dragons' fire.

whoopeee i completed FF7 finally.

with severe overtraining for the entire group. i wasted quite a lot of time because i trained at wrong place. but then i found this SUPER place and i got like massive AP and EXP... i was going into battle with 9999HP with 999 MP. my party has Cloud, Cid and Cait Sith. Cloud has 4x-Cut, and each hit he delivers is 9999. Cid hits 9999 per hit. Cait Sith is magic, so he double casts ULTIMA. Sephiroth can't touch me!

then as i watched the ending, blah blah blah blah... had to see Cloud omnislash Sephiroth... about more than 12 hits of >7800+... boring. then the final credits were rolling.. when ZAP goes my electricity because of stupid lightning thunder.

haiz. i have to watch the ending properly la!

no update about week. will report next time. gonna go night cycling soon. BE STRONG!

let it slide.

ok back.

coming up is VESAK DAY.. another holiday! thursday night i'm going night cycling till friday morning... first timer.. hopefully i can survive it through. SHOULD BE OK LA. i just need like red bull, water, energy boosters. it should keep me alive for a long time.

but the fact that i have school plus BS on thursday... it just makes me so TIRED thinking of it. hey, but it's really worth the training. COME BACK MR SIX-PACK!

i have jammed TWICE this week, today being the second time. it's tiring. singing. oh well, never mind, improvision is what we can do at this level.

yes the elections are over... but i don't really care honestly. nothing interesting by opposition yet. maybe they should try stuff like remove COE, road tax etc. haha, that's worth voting for. but honestly, i wouldn't trust an opposition to run a government, nobody ever tried, they don't have the funds and experience.

i wish it would just rain forever like saturday night. or even heavier. i don't really care. nowadays rain seem so nice. cold, perfect. i like the cold nowadays. as long as i don't get sick of course. but don't worry, i am not going to start on any of those EMO shit, it's boring to write them now... plus i think it's completely unnecessary. very few would get the idea of the CROWN PRINCE concept, something which i invented myself recently. haha.

in any case, i shall not be foolish to go and find trouble. i shall let trouble find me. and i will crush trouble. a bit insane, but i don't care.

there shall be a new codename for someone. just like MOMO-san, i'm creating something else. except MOMO ain't going to be used again, ever, and i mean EVER. so most probably i will think of a name soon.

and the name is...

ok i can't really think of one. but the FF7 has reminded me to name the person... TIFA!

subject to change, so let me think of something else ok? spare me please. haha.

i'll whip your head!

too bored... so i made an album cover.

because we are feeling GHETTO, so we kind of got nicks for ourselves.. after watching Get Rich or Die Tryin' and wearing what we have.

from left, that's MAJESTIC(jos), JUSTICE(me) and DANGEROUS(edd)

damn, junwei quickly appear to jam leh so that i can create a proper album cover.

anyway, shall blog soon at the later night.

LATER.

crown prince.

i forget that among everyone, i am really the fortunate crown prince.

my problems should be the least of everyone's concerns, and i should seek to solve them quickly.

on an other note, there are people that have done really honourable stuff. they deserve a great respect.

i should be mature. and with the gifts i have, i should be helping.

constant blogging improves english language.

moooooodddyyy sswwwwiiinnngggsssss....

mmmoooodddyyy ssswwiinnggssss.....

kIdS pLs dUnCh foCkiNg TyPe LiKe ThiS mY EyES fOCKinG hUrT WheNeVeR U Do Tt WoOrX!

ok. complete random. that was what i saw being typed at some blog of this junior. can't remember which blog already... was searching during DMA because of explanations part. not paying attention, so just blog hop for juniors. yes it's true, there are people who type like that and they make reading damn difficult! and what the hell is worx!? i don't think it freaking exists in the chinese dictionary! even if it did, chinese was really never meant to be combined with english! what the hell?!

as you can see i'm really on a mood swing. i think it must be the fatigue.

jamming was fun as usual... but i still feel the bass still feel a lack somehow. i really need to listen to all the songs... and really practice the sounds.. bass doesn't sound good enough. never has been anyway, but i should try my best. i like playing first date. it's a fun song. somehow i do the singing (don't ask anything damn it.) and the bass riff is fun enough. when i play this song i can focus better... maybe because i'm more familiar with the riff already plus i like the song.

hopefully can jam the more hardcore songs. i look forward to jamming franz ferdinand and all that. but first things i need to get that bass guitar (jon's) re-strung as the strings are stock strings... and they rusted already. have to get the stainless ones.

unfortunately for bass guitar, strings aren't cheap. normal guitar strings... average price can reach about $8- $20? i'm not very sure. however low-end bass strings already cost $25 and does not include the service of re-stringing for you. and obviously the low-ends are not what i am looking for, so i can expect about $30++ at least. jos once saw $60+ with re-stringing. wait till i slide too much, get the tetanus, then maybe i understand the need to get the new strings.

by the way...

damn. i shouldn't think so much about feelings. there is some screw-up with the way i feel nowadays i suppose. error in its code, malfunction, etc. rejection is not a fun thing when it's in your face huh? ok, i did get over it, but you know, the part where it rings in your head every morning... well, it isn't fun at all when i really think i am over with it and moving to do the next move.

damn don't trap me in a cycle. it is this that kills the heart in me. i would treasure what i have, instead of gamble big time and lose big time. life would be fun with gambles, but hell, i get the fear factor already.

i should do what my heart feels is right i suppose? then again...

what is right? i hate the inability to know anything.