Light + / Dark -

Changed the skin... This is actually one of the templates but I modified it.

It's most probably a temporary skin, it is hard to find the nice plain ones in white. Plain skins usually come in those button types which I don't like or they have too many cartoon graphics (doesn't make it plain at all after that).

It is still missing too much stuff such as the birthday info and all that. The tagboard is a bit off place and unsightly because of the colour. But I manage to retain the photo marquee (which hasn't been updated for too damn long, but what the hell).

By the way, I'm looking for temporary jobs people! Looking to clear this horrible holiday (not exactly the usual choice of words) with some proper cash. Planning long-term now, hitting 20 next year means old.

I am thinking of taking cheap tuition, maybe in E-Maths. Can't really remember the rest of the stuff such as Science.

Of course if there is anything, tell me! PLEASE!

Alright alright, the post was meant to be a pulse in the blog's life force. =/

The Matrix of Madness

I am going through a significantly tough time which is more of a self-auditing session with many painful truths and realities.

The self-fabricated world I have been living in has now collapsed and it tells me time to actually be alive. The snapping sensation in the mind, like the crack of an egg, is one hell of a feeling, but yet again I am still wondering what of it.

The biggest problem with me is that I have such pathetic self-confidence. The Asian way, or generally the world's way of a person having much self-confidence is to calculate the merits in life. I guess I don't have many and I blame myself for that. It just seems I couldn't forgive myself at all.

God said to me, as I interpreted, "I'm not going to spoon-feed you anymore. Find your own answers."

I looked through the events in my life and it has really been repeated attempts to solve the problem. I don't trust myself to get through ridiculous situations. I don't trust my heart and mind. It creates a gigantic insecurity and causes me to lose my ability to discern. Everything becomes a cynical affair and I don't think I ever deserve anything good in my life.

It's such a problem, it's tiring.

Maybe God meant; "I DON'T HAVE TO spoon-feed you anymore. You already know the answer."

Crunchy Rolls

Almost done with ICM, but while there's time...

A photo post, which I'm going to gladly give you all. Though not really linked, I'm just going to show you all some of the more recent events I did for the past week.

My keyboard is a bit crazy too. When I press Shift+2, you would normally get our common 'A' logo which is this @. However, mine has switched with the ", so Shift+2 gets me " while Shift+' gets me @. Whatever, but it's fairly irritating, and I don't know how it ended up like that.

I watched 300 at Janan's house on Tuesday (I know, a little bit late) and it's a great show! Wow!



"Spartans! What is your profession?" I simply loved the line, and how Leonidas said it.

Last Friday was Jevon's birthday celebration, in which we had a steamboat party at Marina. It's been a really long while since I last went there, but every time we guys go there, at least one of us ends up with a sore throat or diarrhoea. I was the sore throat victim this time.

No photos on site, but photos while we were going back. Here it is











Photos courtesy of the PHONE CAMERAS' PEOPLE - Huiru, Jos and Zhaolin.

Speaking of phones, my W550i is sadly broken. It's not so literal broken, but the LCD screen has sort of cracked within, making LCD juice leak (I think). The screen is not repairable and now I'm borrowing Janan's N8250 for use. It's like the coolest phone! Blue lights, Snake, 160-Alphabet SMS! Awesome! Not.

I have some cool videos too. Not exactly cool, because maybe I've shown some of you already, but here they are.



It's not Chinese, like what the video guy said, but it's for the Chinese audience. It's actually in Japanese.



The first ever video done in India using Blue-Screen technology. The actual song is actually quite meaningful lyrically, but well, it's just being made fun of.

That's about all. Hope you guys enjoy this post... But of course, with the holidays coming up, I can update more!

If there's one thing that I'd hang onto.

It's the end of the semester... Well, not yet.

I just cleared the final CIBM project. Now I'm left with the WFM assignment and the most dreaded MIA assignment, which is going to be a challenge(s).

The mind is quite busy. It is drawing a lot of charts and diagrams right now over EVERY LITTLE THING in the life it is using. How productive or effective, I don't really know. It's really a lot of charts and diagrams, linking to any other possible affiliation. Damn, I was hoping this could mean I have the makings of a genius.

I hope to work and earn some good money this time round. And not spend it unnecessarily of course. Time to start saving and maybe, do something really good with the life I'm having. First 20 years of fun, fair enough. After that, I shouldn't really be playing too much. Look far!

There aren't many feelings to describe what is inside me right now. It somehow feels pretty cold, some warmth, but that's about it. I could start by looking at things more objectively, with lesser selfish intent and pride.

Useless pride. Where did it even come from anyway?

"You take the blue pill, and the story ends. You believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, and I'll show you how deep the rabbit hole goes." - Morpheus

I want the red pill then.